Friday, September 26, 2008

I Got Nothing

I'm going to skip the cross country meet tomorrow for a couple of reasons. Firstly, because I'm going to drive to Houston and see Scottie. Then, instead of driving to Houston on Sunday, I can stay home and clean my filthy house, attack the pile of laundry from hell, and actually cook a meal. Second, my allergies are in full swing and spending 4+ hours outside in a field would insure me a miserable 3 or 4 days of itching, swollen eyes, mucus-ie lungs and nose, and headaches. Oh, don't worry, I'll have those anyway, but not quit as severe if I stay indoors. Thirdly, (OK - I know I said a couple of reasons, but I didn't wake up prepared to do math), the boys don't have anywhere to be on Sunday, and we can spend a day together at home for the first time since mid-August.

So where's my head these days?

McCain is a bigger douche than I ever imagined, and believe me when I say I have a huge imagination.

I am still missing Rene' a lot. It is only a couple of weeks away from one year since I ended the relationship, and I still miss her. I've seen her several times this week, and it still hurts. I still get (quite literally) weak in the knees when I see her. If there is a silver lining to all the bullshit in my life right now, it's that I simply don't have time to be overwhelmed with Rene' induced depression. Doesn't mean it's not there, mocking me from my sub-conscious, but the immediacy of the Scottie crisis and having to fit it all in between work, kids, and household responsibilities is keeping it from crushing me as it has in the past.

I finished Atonement this week, and now I'm dying to see the film. Yes, I loved it. I started Midnight's Children yesterday. It's too early to tell, but I think it might be alright. I confess, I was a little afraid of it. Have any of you read it? Or read any Rushdie for that matter?

The boys are good - Cross Country, Football, and the Fall Play are keeping us very, very busy.

Here's a little music to get you ready for the weekend - can this song really be 12 years old already? Shit, I consider this some of my "newer" music. I gotta get out more.


Bee said...

Hey BSR, you've got a lot . . . and I mean that on so many different levels.

I'm sure that getting your house sorted will make you feel a bit better. You need some "home" time.

I second your judgment on McCain. I wasn't ever "for" him, but I cannot believe the lows to which he will go to win this election. I have lost all respect for the man. (BTW, it is great to get some political commentary from you.)

See Atonement this weekend if you can; it is a lovely, moving film.

I promise to start Midnight's Children next week. We need a book club for this one!

Big hug.

Comrade Kevin said...

Regarding your video. I used to dress like that, back in the day. How times have changed.

kkryno said...

Taking care of the home fires AND yourself during this difficult time is the best thing you can do. You and the boys need a little normalcy in order to recharge.
I agree about McCain. He can dodge issues all he wants; they're not going away. The actions of his camp just insult the intelligence of the American Public.
I have you all in my thoughts. Stay strong.

Anne said...

I'm with Bee--on the home time, on enjoying the return of a bit of political commentary, on Atonement, and all the rest.

I'm about 20-30 pages into Midnight's Children. I put it down a couple of months ago because I got distracted, but will pick it up again if there will be a book club!

I hope that Scottie continues to improve. Baby steps. It's great that you're able to go see him as often as you can even while the kids are in school and such.

Take care, Brave Sir. We're all pulling for you, and for Scottie.

somewaterytart said...

Atonement was beautifully done. I'm not sure how it merits as an adaptation, as I haven't read the book, but the cinematography is lovely, and damn if Kiera Knightly doesn't look insanely good in that emerald gown.

I think even if you don't think the adaptation is well (or perfectly) done, you'll be interested in figuring it out. It's a pretty smart movie.

konagod said...

You sure do have a lot going on.

Get some relaxation on Sunday at least.

Batocchio said...

I reviewed Atonement back in March I think - not bad. A bit emotionally detatched. Haven't read the book yet.

Best wishes for Scott.