It's been one whole year since this little site came on line. One year ago, Brave Sir Robin signed on. I was hoping to vent a little, to share my opinion, to pass on news, both good and not so good. Also, I was hoping to give myself a little focus and direction after breaking things off with Rene'.
I'm not sure how successful I was. Certainly, 2007 was a mixed bag for me. I went through several periods of pretty deep depression, I went back to her twice, (with the same results each time), and I made some great friends here in my little corner of the tubes.
I'd be lying if I said I haven't been missing her a lot over the holidays, but I managed to stay pretty busy, which most certainly helps. Being busy is of course, it's own mixed bag. I go back to work on the 2nd, and I'm pretty sure I will be exhausted and my house will be filthy.
It is a sign that I have grown a bit in that a messy house no longer freaks me out the way it once did. My kids are healthy, they are very happy, they are all four making excellent grades.
I don't really make New Years Resolutions, but I do have some general goals for myself and this site that I'd like to share with you.
I want to be more grateful for what I have this year. As I've told you before, I tend to be a glass half empty type. I really want to try to focus on being more aware of the full half of the glass.
I want to post more consistently. I can't imagine I will ever be able to post every day, but I want to stop being afraid of posting when the dark time comes. Forcing myself to act during those times is the best thing for making it go away.
I want to continue to value myself more. I do deserve better than Rene'. I didn't believe that at all this time last year. I do believe it now, but I need to be reminded from time to time. I hope to move on.
Happy New Year to all of you.
You will never know the difference you have made in my life.